moments

it's funny the things we say to make ourselves feel better

almost as if by repeating the same old line over and over we can magically change our situations

don't get me wrong, I am an avid believer in the power of "everything happens for a reason", but that's only because I've seen that cliche actually work, time and time again.

however there are secret things we tell ourselves when the going gets tough and we need to feed our brains something encouraging to not give up.

what's my quiet little reassurance?

"it's just a moment in time"

don't ask me where I got that, all I know is that this affirmation is something that I have been saying to myself my entire life and has actually gotten me through some tough situations.

when i get blood taken, i just close my eyes and say "don't worry, Charlotte, it's only a moment in time. it'll be over soon". when I came close (many times) in Europe to fainting due to dehydration and simple lack of food, I would steady myself and say "it'll pass, it's just a moment in time"

sure, this may have worked in those situations, but the problem is, this reassurance can not be applied to my current situation. no amount of saying this is all going to go away can actually make it go away. i can not be passive this time, and no matter how much it hurts, I am going to have to take the pain and actually work with it instead of pushing it into the past.

besides, what is life other than a series of moments? if i continue to believe my situation is just a "moment in time" and push it aside, am I essentially just pushing aside my entire life...past, present and future?