lose

My heart hurts...

and I cannot say why.

I am so angry and confused and lonely and I can feel it all bubbling inside of me. Before I know it, I'm going to lose it and possibly lose something much more important in the process.

My relationships, my dignity, my personality, my life.

I'm losing....I'm seeing it all fall through my fingers and I feel like I can't stop it.

God, what can I do? Please help me understand what I need to do.